Fat rice

iveost weight eating at home for all meals n cooking meals use low salt n no sugar,gluten free n dairy free.now craving for village park nasi lemak,pak hassan rojak pasembor n cendol,chan meng kee wantan mee,o and s yong tau foo and pisang goreng,the thosai at section 16 and nasi pisang at kanna curry.shit open up the dining in.im going on makan spree .i miss my feast

Light

Garden n fish

Meals

breakfast is the most important meal as the stomach has been empty for so long.im tryimg intermittent fastimg and have lost 5 kg and after this latest operation i expect to lose appetite and more weight. i hope when im away,jun will water my plants n feed the fish.the last time,he left the pot of soup unwashed for days until mouldy. i feel half my plants may wilt and my fish die of humger when i get home.hope they survive.

cooking ,travelling,nature

I love cooking and trying out new recipes.I like French,Italian n Spanish cuisine.In lockdown.I learned to bake French quiche and cook Spanish paella.I've looked for comfort food.I also mis swimming in the sea in Sri Lanka and being out in Nature so much

Free to be

I am the author of my life Free to be me Not living up to expectations to be a dutiful child,a dedicated wife,a loyal worker,a perfect mother I can wear my heart on my sleeve sweep away my fears under the carpet proudly show the scars on my body the greying hair on my temples i am free to be me to speak my mind and be open about my vulnerabilty those who despise me i dont give a damn coz im too caught up with living each moment as if it were the last to try to chase the dreams ive never had the guts to try so when the book of Life has closed its last chapter i know i have loved,lived and gained the right to be the author of my life

Health care

i dislike discomfort of pap smear n avoided it for years.wish there is less invasive examination.the mammogram is another procedure i dread.wish someone invent less painful procedures using technology.as aging body,we are subjected to more frequent medical procedures.sometimes our health scare happen unexpectedly as my friends hubby had clean bill of health after annual medical exam and suddenly needed bypass surgery for chest pains.or neighbour had stage four lung cancer although seemingly non smoker and fit.or the football player who collapsed from cardiac arrest.

Wild hair

with the hairdresser shop not allowed to open,im having a bad hair day as its like wild grass growing out of shape.i wish i know how to trim my own hair cooking and baking can be learnt but how to trim back of my head myself. had simple food as the heat made me lose appetite to eat.just had yoghurt n tuna sandwich.

Rainy day n monday

its raining heavily on Monday morning.grey cloudy sky, rain splashing on ground.i love the rain after a week of scorching heat.the air smells fresh,my plants are drenched and the wind is chilly.i just love rainy days,it never makes me down like a hot blazing day. my fish are happy the water is clear again.

Healthy meals

breakfast of wholemeal french toast,a green kiwi n a bottle of japanese sangaria barley n brown rice tea with herbs like lingzhi,ginseng,shitakke etc.i declare it premium detox tea n it works magic to cleanse bowels. dinner is fish paste stuffed into beancurd puffs n shitake mushroom n braised in oyster sauce with goji berry n bak choy stir fried with tofu n basmati faizal herbal rice.

Sunday restday

this morning i woke up feeling better.yesterday i suspect i had heatstroke after washing car outdoors and washing fish tank filter in blazing hot sun.i felt extremely dehydrated,thirsty,had awful headache n loss appetite.cooked vegetarian sweet n sour cod fish made of soya and nori seaweed skin.a mix vege of capsicum n sweet corn and ice cold silken tofu in soy sauce n onion oil. yesterday bought new filter substrate and saw ten giant marble goby reared by acquarium owner for his own comsumption.its the most expensive freshwater fish in restaurants .a big steamed fish easily cost rm 200 to 300 a meal.im lucky dad was a good fisherman and we ate his catch of ikan haruan,marble goby,lampan n grass carp.i cant afford to eat it now as its a costly delicacy. this morn i played with the neighbours three cute kittens.one clung on my feet with his paws and another jumped up to catch my tinkling keys.good stress reliever.then i drove to the lake at community forest with entrance of barbed wires so i could only walk along tbe cycling path but so relaxing to see green trees n lake.i hope they open up the parks and trails soon.

Albert Camus

pray the bookshops are open for business.i need to stock up my reading list.i just listened to a talk Albert Camus gave on The Human Crisis on inhumane humanity,the evolution of nation states into empires and the universality of human condition. so i need to read his novel The Plague to see if the Covid pandemic has a message to us. Time to buy another novel Love in thetime of Cholera. " in this pestilence,the biggest threat doesnt come from the loss of human lives but what makes us humans." so im proud to see fellow Malaysians rise to the occasion in a crisis to rally for his fellowmen crying in hunger so it means more to wave the white flag than the striped flag for its in response and action of food aid and concrete help given to support the fallen that we show our love and kindness to fellowmen in spite of race,religion or politics.

A skeptic view of ancient wisdom

a modernist view thinks in with the new and sweeps away the old.so of course science and technology are associated with progress and the better quality of life it has improved upon.undeniably we owe it to the leaps and bounds that mechanization and industrialization has given us a comfortable n more convenient lifestyle. so we disregard the ancient knowledge of our ancestors.only now we are seeing the effects of unsustainable way of life and the effects are widespread and catastrophic from the devastating floods in China and Europe,the wildfires in the US amd Australia,the prolonged drought and threatened farm production Excess consumption and unbridled development resulted in emvironmental destruction. in countries with established traditional knowledge,we scoff at the ancient wisdom that harmonizes man with nature.soon,farmers lose their traditional knowledge of agricultural practices and trust in machines,chemical fertilizers ,genetically modified seeds,pesticides to increase yields.we surrender unwritten knowledge to corporations that use intellectusl property rights to misappropriate traditional knowledge. its not only happening in agriculture,but also in medicine amd traditional arts like yoga,ayurvedic medicine,herbal treatment,acupuncture or martial arts. when ancient wisdom can be moneticized using modern methods of business like extractimg vital components of herbs and making into vaccines,pills etc or commercializing yoga by usimg online apps or yoga retreats or yoga apparel or acupuncture for pain relief.The western cultural appropriation sees commercial exploitation of traditional knowledge as how fireworks in China is transformed to gunpowder or tumeric and ginseng the new wonder health food. with rising cost of modern medical treatment,it is time to see how our forefathers use traditional methods to stay healthy before we have an opoid crisis or drug dependency on our hands.it is time we get back to meditation and mindfulness training before our mental healthcare is assigned to asylums and the rise in mental illness due to breakdown in communal lifestyle.it is time to go back to organic food before we pollute the soil and water.

Asian males (sigh)

why are Asian men so helpless and hopeless when it comes to doing domestic chores? got some bloody lazy and superior attitude that housework is womens work.despite having my own career,i still manage to clean the house weekly,pay bills,go shopping for grocery,cook meals,wash laundry but the spoilt brat fat emperor in my house wont take out the trash coz its smelly,wont water my plants,wash the car or cook his own meal.expect me to cook breakfast when im so busy in the morning.go eat bread n butter son,i aint no personal chef. whines when cooking not to his liking.call your food delivery la.use my car and dont wash it or pump air in tyres.the bloody car wash is not allowed to open.wash n clean the car myself at 2pm in 33 degree heatwave.nearly boiled alive.car full of trash,bird shit n drinks spilled on car seat. then had to wash fish tank as its clogged n change filter then water and fertilise my plants. soooo tired with aching muscles.asian males are lazy pigs.

Simple food

in hot weather,no slaving over hot stove.eat simple meals like pasta in mushroom sauce with cubed salmon,crabstick,brocolli n red pepper.light n easy to digest

Physiotherapy to regain strength

since i had surgery for my fractured knee cap,i have been doing physiotherapy to recover strength and balance.walking was agony but i did exercises every week anc physiotherapist trained me to get confidence to walk with crutches and now i can stand on my own unaided.no pain,no gain

time to sketch and paint

time to paint and draw in lockdown movement restriction

Day to exercise

after yesterday detox day,my joints are less aching.i love the japanese detox drink as i went to toilet six times.i feel body aches n joint pain due to overeating at home.i need chinese tuina or thai massage to help me relieve constipation.after cleansing,mybody felt lighter so i went to ground floor residents garden,sat on wooden swingn enjoy the sunhine,landscaped garden n cats playimg. started back yoga and exercise with stretch band n dumb bells.feel more energized after detox