Friday, December 31, 2021

At the park

4 hours to 2022

wishing for a peaceful n joyous New Year.baked a lavender cranberry cake for dinner party with old friends.i love my friends red wine seafood pasta,a gourmet meal.she baked cheese mussels,roasted a superbly fragrant chicken with serai n black pepper n made salmon cream cheese sandwiches,vanilla ice cream with strawberry.i was in food paradise.it rained heavily so i couldnt swim in her pool.tomorrow need to workout to burn the calories.

Thursday, December 30, 2021

Last day of a Bad year

selamat pagi,happy new year.out with a bad 2021.auspicious sign ,the white water lily bloomed on last morning of 2021.good sign purity and spiritual growth will bloom in 2022.the red heart antrium bloom so follow my heart n go with the flow.another good sign ,the fat son made resolution to follow me to exercise in the park.he walked the hill trail n witnesses monkey business,f#$%like theres no tomorrow.ha ha .my fitness buddies were laughing.the car park is so full of people making new year resolution to exercise.give them 4 months n they will quit.it was a sunny day but suddenly it was raining lightly.luckily i brought along disposable raincoats.i gave one to hunk Romi but unfortunately he cant fit the normal adult size as he is a BIG Bulky incredible Hulk. then jun and i went to village park to eat the best nasi lemak in Malaysia.life is going to be good in 2022.i see the signs.good food,good friends,pretty blooms.

Wednesday, December 29, 2021

Almond longan jelly

i try my best to cook at home as i use stevia or monk fruit sugar,omega eggs,greek yoghurt etc which are healthy options.juns memory of good food is remarkable as for xmas he didnt like to eat duck le orange but wanted stuffed roast chicken i cooked 10 years ago.i recreated exact recipe h he had food orgasm.for filling i use chinese shitake mushroom,chestnut,dried oysters,red dates,dried tangerine peel,candied winter melon,chinese lap cheong n mixed peas.i used shao xing wine.i made a brown sauce which is western but the fusion worked well.jun licked the plate clean.ate ALl the roasted sweet potato,brocolli n pumpkin. today he requested an old favourite at dim sum restaurants almond,longan jelly.hope it turns out well.lately my fingers joints swell n ache from overuse.i make all the cakes and bread manually as im too lazy to unpack the equipment from the boxes and wash so many things.but repetitive stress injury cause carpal tunnel syndrome.painful todays almond jelly is a recipe for DISASTER.i didnt follow the recipe and .i used a carton of chilled almond milk,used agar instead of gelatin.the jelly was not snow white but muddy biege,the jelly not wobbly but firm.next time i use fresh full creammilk,natural almond extract n gelatin.this jelly is yucky firm n has ugly colour.a big failure.

Tuesday, December 28, 2021

Replenish stock of fresh fruit

pension just came in n i quickly bought new stock of fresh fruit which is so expensive nowadays.i buy strawberry from Egypt at rm 10.90,red kiwi from China cost
rm 12.90 for 5 and bloody pricey malaysian red dragonfruit at rm 12.90 a kilo.a small red dragonfruit cost me rm 5.00.luckily i hate durians n i cant afford to eat durians anyway

Sunshine

greatsunny day.i need sunshine to chase away the blues.found the sunglasses my students gifted me as a farewell present before they left to study engineering in Germany.i miss the kids like my own children.they were cheeky n challenging n fun.said i needed some cool shades.i love old banyan trees.they have strong life force ,strong trunk n roots

Lucid dream

sometimes i get good vibes or bad vibes.sentient beings communicate through wordless medium.once i visited a war museum which was a prison and execution site.the place was dark n gloomy altho it was late afternoon.in a small cell which was isolated,there wasnt anyone,no visitors,just me reading a plague with victims names.suddenly i felt a chill and a presence.A deep sorrow and anguish weighed heavily in my heart as if i could feel exactly what the presence was feeling.i prayed idam me natinam hontu 3x.the feeling lifted and i quickly left. it didnt want to harm me,just to express its heartfelt anguish. i didnt tell a soul about it or they think i was making up story.but coincidentally,one of my students who playfully put his head through a rope noose used for hanging prisoners had horrifying nightmares night after night of dead corpses.he went to a temple to cleanse the bad energy. for two nites i had this dream of water.what is the message.in one,i was on a boat with my late father.we were sailing on a lake tasik Chini in pahang which was filled to thw brim with huge pink lotus.i could see the dew drops clinging to lotus leaves.dad was tanned and grinning while i dipped my hand into the lake.this feeling of blissful communion with nature was so REAL. last nite,i dreamt of going with Jun to a holiday by the seaside.I plunged into the infinity swimming pool that overlooked the endless horizons where the sky meets the sea.there was a glorious sunset.i swam until my body was tired and then jun and i drove the rented car to town.we went to this ocean aquarium and fascinated to see diffetent species of marine fish.i cant remember which nation this was located but i know it was lush,tropical with sandy beaches. out of the body experience is so real,its not like virtual reality but i actually was there.again wordless drama,just the feeling was so intense.maybe not travelling for 2 years has got me down.if i stay home any longer,i will be safe but my mind will go crazy.either i become a hypochondriac like my single sis in law who lives alone with imaginary germs attacking her the moment she is outside or my supercranky single elder sister who is a drama queen as she lives alone and craves attention. what is the symbol of water.lotus,fish and infinity swimming pool?

Monday, December 27, 2021

Rest in peace,a true man of peace

the world will not forget your legacy in the council of Elders.your wisdom lives on

Young at heart

I like to socialise with young people because they are resourceful and innovative.this morning at the park,i was chatting with my young fitness pals.Rumi was asking me and the other Chinese girl to converse in Mandarin with him or he will lose touch with his chinese proficiency as if you dont use it,you will lose it.the same goes for building up muscles.the other fit Malay girl was praising the sports shoes New Balance when they noticed the pair of Asics trainers that my son bought for my birthday.they told me it was a good brand for running.i told them i buy cheap sports shoes that were poorly designed.they advised against it as it doesnt protect the heel or provide cushioning from injuries.i learn a lot from the young as the gals taught me how to balance on a stretchable elastic band.the chinese gal n i taught Romi n an elderly Malay pak cik some simple greetings in Cantonese n Mandarin.i told the elderly malay man its nice to interact in each others language so altho i switch code between cantonese,malay and english,at heart im still proud to be a Malaysian.he laughed when i told him although our bodies get old,but we must remain young at heart.Berhati hati,walau pun badan dah berusia tapi di dalam hati masih MUDA.so we have a party that is Muda and the hati yang MUDA likes to party.one nation,one heart and mind.

Sunday, December 26, 2021

He Ping he Xi Le

2022 new calender planner.planning for love of peace and joy.He Ping he Xi Le.La Paix et La Joie

Chicken pie

baked a pie with minced chicken,shumeiji mushrooms,chestnut,duck liver sausage,basil leaves topped in a buttery crunchy crust.the recipe by susan jung is great

Saturday, December 25, 2021

Save the last dance for me

Last dance of the year

New year is coming

It is breaking my heart to see the suffering of my fellow Malaysians losing their homes,belongings,cars and lives due to severe flooding. Natural disasters strikes all regardless of rich or poor,Chinese,Malay,Indians.lain lain,Muslims,Buddhist ,Christians,Hindus,Sikhs,the old or young.I really pray that 2022 will be a good year for all..so sad that many people lost their lives or kill themselves during Covid pandemic.i pray they stay strong and positive to rebuild their lives after the natural disasters.im also proud to see ordinary Malaysians from other states whether Melaka or Johor coming to flood hit areas to save the victims or deliver food and supplies.if the ordinary Malaysians can put aside our parochial interests of being anak Johor,Kelantan,Melaka to work together,we also pray our politicians can rise above narrow interest of federal vs. state level or put aside party politics whether Amanah,Warisan,Umno,Bersatu to work as one Nation to help all victims of Covid or flood regardless of race or religion.our Nation needs leadership or else it will be hard to weather this storm or any future storms be it natural disasters or economic crisis.

Bake like crazy

so tiring with aching joints.but i feel happy when jun invites his pals over to the house for teatime and they really appreciate home baked goodies.juns bro loved the brownies and guiness stout cake with pineapple n strawberries that i baked.hope juns friends enjoy the christmas fruitcake i baked with mixed fruits that i soaked for 2 weeks in rum.it was slightly burned at the top so i covered it with greek yogurt,whipped cream and basil n strawberries just like women can hide their flaws with bright makeup.im also baking pumpkin cake with rich n creamy chocolate frosting topped with pineapple rings,blueberry n strawberry.tomorrow is boxing day n time to bake minced chicken pie with button mushrooms in shortcrust pastry.my fingers ache but my tummy is happy.

Friday, December 24, 2021

Merry Xmas Bella

Jun made a phone call to our ex Filipino domestic helper Bella in Pangasinan to wish her a Merry Xmas.She is like a member of my family having brought up Jun since he was a baby.She was encouraging him to get hitched and nag him as usual.i wish all peace on earth and joy to the world.looking at how proactive my fellow citizens are helping each others restores my hope and belief in humanity