Nostalgia

a flood of nostalgia overcame me.i feel sad and happy when i saw the twinkling lites on the mini xmas tree.its been two decades since i put up an xmas tree in my home.jun was emotional when he saw the lighted tree.the last time we saw it we were one happy family.the big tree he remembered had a shining star at the top.he was the apple of his fathers eye.his dad doted on him.his grandma was his playmate.bella,our pinoy domestic helper used to buy him toys.i made trifle for xmas.now his dad and grandma have passed away and bella gone back to her hometown.he gave me a hug.mom you have been both my father and mother all these years.yeah,son,its been a long,lonely job.now i hope he gets to find the woman of his dream to share his life so that i can resign and let go of this job.then my heart will be at peace.maybe i will copy the beijing parents marriage market and advertise his credentials in the park.for sale,a young eligible man looking for a lifelong partner.sensitive,romantic,new age guy.apply now.ha ha i plan to secretly do that before he becomes a leftover man.