Down with flu

climate changes from thunderstorms to hot days has made me catch a flu.my joints n back ache like hell runny nose n sore throat make me so tired.need to rest to recover. feeling lousy i really want merdeka or be free from virus n germs n ill health i skip zumba today as muscles ache.gonna lie flatn read my novels instead no energy to bake or cook.eat congee. i read in China a daughter was angry as her parents arranged blind dates n urged her to get married.She left home to work in another state n never contacted her parents until her dad dressed in teddy bear costume and travelled thousands of miles away to offer apology n bouquet of flowers to her n they reconciled. i understand the patents dilemma as a single mother myself.i just wish him to find a life partner who will share his ups and downs as i cannot be there forever to offer emotional support or social support.A parent is the hardest job in the world as we have a role to take care of the kids as we are responsible for bringing them to this world.they didnt ask to be born.What will happen if jun doesnt want to learn self reliance n rely on me.if i am sick like now i stll go to the wet market to buy food n drive around running errands .he doesnt have plans for the future when i get sick n old and need long term care.thinks i put him on guilt trip when thats the reality of aging.im looking at nursing homes near a public hospital so he need not send me for hospital visits n check ups one day.seorang ibu boleh jaga sepuluh anak tapi sepuluh anak tak boleh jaga seorang ibu as chef Wan recalled when looking after his own elderly mother in my condo there are many elderly widows living alone.their childten employ a indon maid to look after them but i guess its not the same.even in a nursing home ill learn to live with strangers in a new environment.when i was renting my previous condo,i befriended an old lady living alone.i pity her so i took her shopping grocery sometimes.she looked after her grandkids until they grew up n schooling and her son put her alone in the condo n put in a CCTV camera to keep a lookout in case she falls .but she was lonely so she wanted to babysit neighbours children to occupy her time.i feel we are turning into Japan and Singapore where old people die at home and no one notices until rotten smell irritates or maggots creep out to neighbouring unit. So i support euthanasia machines as end of life solution when one is ready to depart on sound mind but sick in body.why prolong pain and suffering? why be a burden to others? no point to delay the inevitable as buddhist say life is uncertain but death is certain.